Man, for all the hell that the first 4 months of parenthood was, I'm now being rewarded big-time with the sweetest, most wonderful little boy. He has energy like you wouldn't imagine, and he is so curious that he's getting into everything - particularly the things he shouldn't get into like cables, cords and cat food. Today we had eachother in hysterics sticking out our tongues at one another. He started it, just playing with his own tongue, pointing it, rolling it around in his mouth, grabbing it with his fingers... you get the idea, and I stuck mine out at him to see if he would understand that we were doing the same thing. He reached for my tongue and started giggling, then stuck his own out and I would laugh, which would make him laugh even harder. It was the best moment of my day, just making my baby so happy like that - there's nothing like it in the world.
I also took him out this afternoon to meet up with my girlfriend, and during the drive to the mall I kept glancing in my rearview mirror at him. He sat quietly, playing with his toy phone or tugging on a car seat strap, and I couldn't help but smile at him. My chest felt full and warm looking at my gorgeous, well-behaved little guy. Even though we were stuck in rush hour traffic I couldn't have cared less, because singing "Down by the Bay" to my baby, and reaching back to stroke his hair at red lights totally makes my life. Now, I know that during those first few months of colic and exzema I had doubts as to whether or not I was really ready for this whole motherhood thing. But as days of smiles, babbling, and laughter have become the norm, the days of freakouts and poor sleeping (his and mine!) fade into distant memories. I realize that not only was I ready for a child, but having this person to spend my life with has blessed me in ways that I'm only just beginning to discover. I look forward to each new day with excitement about what he might learn or do, and in this particular stage (8 months) it seems that there really is something new every single day. I can only imagine what the coming days (and months and years!) will bring, and I wonder how my heart will manage not to burst with love for him, considering it's already so full. :)
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Katelyn, thank you so much for sharing such beautiful, intimate moments. I'm excited to hear about the changes that your little boy is experiencing - learning to crawl, his first tooth appearing, and growing with curiosity - but it is equally rewarding to hear about what motherhood is like for you. It's just wonderful and I am so pleased to read a blog post like this. It's hard to describe just how much it touches me.
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